apples's blog

You say that humanity
Will only bring destruction
To the universe
But the thing is
You seem to be
Causing more damage
With the powers of God
Than the humans do
Perhaps it is time that
They rise above us
And walk along their own path
They will start anew
And they will do
As they will
And we will not
Interfere with them
Not this time
You amy not agree
But it doesn't matter
Becuase it is what they want
Traveling with them
All this time
Has shown me that
You will stop interfereing
And I will as well
After I help them
Begin anew
And allow them to
Live as humans should
Rather than attempting to
Rise above God
They will
Rise above us

Finally, I am alone again
Finally, the pain will end
If only for a moment
This solitude will grant me
A peace of mind
Though I know it won't last
I am always being hurt
No matter where I go
Someone hurts me in some way
But it can't be helped
Perhaps that is my destiny
To be there for others
To hurt when they are
Feeling down
I guess all I can do
Is accept it
And continue to live my life
And serving my purpose

The needle pierces your skin
The pain is slightly dulled
But it never fully goes away
It is just covered up
But only for a while
It always comes back
Your problems only increase
With each new scar
That is left behind
I can only hope that you
Will soon see the
Error of your decisions
Because you are only
Getting under my skin
More and more
And I'm finding it harder
To stay friends with you
When you make such
Silly choices
Because it makes others
Think highly of you
Even though you never
Used to care about
What others thought
I want who you
Used to be back
Before something bad happens

I lie here lifeless
Waiting for you to come
Waiting to shed my skin
To become a new me
And leave the me that
Exists without you behind

The longer I go on
Without you
The harder it becomes
To breath again
I need you soon
Before it's too late

It's over now
You never came
Your promise is broken
I no longer have a life to live
I'm all alone in the darkness
With no light around to save me
And it's all thanks to you

Everyone always tries to
Fill up my head with doubts
Make me second guess myself
And never be successful
But it won't work because
My mind is like that of
Everyone else
It works according to
What and only what
It wants to do
So to all those who want to
Try to make me doubt myself
You'll only be wasting precious air
And in the end you may even
Doubt yourself

This is it
This is what
All of the
Training
Over the course
Of the last
Six months
Has been for

The moment has
Finally come
For me to
Stop you right
Where you stand
*Clack*
Mah Jong!
It's over Babbit!

The pain is too much
I don't know how much longer
I'll be able to withstand it
All I know is that
I have made it this far
And I don't want to give up
No matter how much it hurts
I refuse to give up
And if I do lose myself
I want everyone to know that
I didn't give up like he did
But that I gave as big of a fight
As I possibly could

I finally manage
To break away from
All the madness
Only to realize that
It's what I need
But it's too late now
All traces of
Who I once was
Are gone now
So I am forced
To suffer the
Uneventful life
Of sanity

Crimson roses spread
All throughout the room
Candles strategically placed
To give the greatest
Illusion of romance
I have been waiting
For this opportunity
For months now
And the moment
Has finally come
So I can put my plan
Into action

Everything is going
Almost too perfect
I convince you to
Wait for me in the room
While I savor my
Plan that is about
To launch into action
I walk into the room
To find you waiting
On the bed
I choke back my laugh
As everything will
Soon be over

I make the mood
Just right
Create a perfectly
Romantic atmosphere
Waiting for my chance
Which has finally come
You begin to breath
A little heavier
The crimson roses flutter
A shot rings out
And it's all over

All you can do
Is run away
From your fears
And no matter
How much I
Scold you for
Doing so
Watching you
I know that
I am
Just like you

Sleep
It used to be
Something that
Came so easily
But now it's
Something that
I wish I could
Get again
All these
Sleepless nights
Are starting to
Wear me down
I don't know
How much more of this
I can take

I'm runniong down the
Endless tunnel of lies
Trying to reach the
Dim light of truth
That is slowly
Fading away
And soon I will be
Surrounded by nothing
But the darkness of
Other people's lies

All of a sudden I’m jerked awake by a loud crashing noise. And I hear voices. A lot of loud, angry voices. I can’t quite make out what they’re saying, but I have a rough idea. But, where’s Erin? She’s not down there trying to face all of them by herself, is she? She must be crazy! I have to do something, but what?

All of a sudden there’s a loud crashing sound. “Erin!” Silence. “Erin, are you all right?” Still, nothing. Then there are footsteps. Someone’s coming up the stairs! I frantically search the room for something I can use as a weapon, but I can’t find anything. The floorboard outside the door creaks. Someone is right outside my room! But, what happened to Erin? I haven’t heard anything to indicate that she was hurt, but that also stands true for her well being. I watch the doorknob turn. Everything seems to be moving in slow motion. The door opens, and Erin’s standing in the door. And she’s completely unharmed.

“How- ?”

Running through the rain, back to the only shelter I know, I can still hear their laughter. That’s all that they ever do, laugh. They always tell me that I’m a freak, that I’m worthless, and that I’m not good enough to be around them. It’s all because my parents died when I was little and no one would take me in. So I have to live in the abandoned warehouse at the edge of town that everyone says is haunted. And it’s because of this rumor that I’ve been labeled a freak. Everyone says that I’m a devil-worshiper and that I use the ghosts of the warehouse to cause all of the disasters in town. None of the schools will let me in, so I don’t have an education, which just adds to the viciousness of the rumors.

Everything is changing
And this site just
Isn't what it
Used to be
I'm not saying that
I'll never be back
Just that I'm going to
Take a break
I'll still pop in
From time to time
But I think that
I need to think over
A few things before
I come back