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Feelings.
They're just pouring out of me.
These feelings.
They're just pouring out of me
and off of you.
BANG! BANG!
They hit me.
Do you even care?
BANG! BANG!
Your cold feelings just hit me
with such a force that now I'm on the floor.
And now I'm left
with these feelings
of wanting to cry.

Take all of what I've built.
Just take it away from me.
You! Yes you! Are the only one who
could ever do this to me.
And now I feel like I'm not real,
like I'm something just to stare at.
And now all I see
is the latest chapter of me
just turning its last page.
I can't hold this burden
on my shoulders forever.
The strongest love was meant to stand,

If it was pain
and heartache
then I'd be alright.

If it was sorrow
and a sense of loss
then I'd be alright.

If it was anger
and jealousy
then I'd be alright.

If it was torment
and depression
then I'd be alright.

So if it was all this
and a hundred times more
then why am I not alright?

Because it was caused by you.

Now all I can see
is the left over pain
that's dripping out of me.
And it hurts so bad.
It just hurts so bad.

Love.
Its all that flowed out from me.
Its all I ever wanted to see,
but now its gone.
Its all gone.

This ain't a victory for you.
And this ain't a defeat for me.
Its just one of those things
that takes time to realize.
To realize the pain I'm feeling.

Talk to you for hours
and hours at a time.
But now you push me away.

Wish that it wasn't like this.
That I could get my friend back
but the more you change the less I want to stay.

Its hard, you see,
for me to make friends
and for awhile now I've felt comfortable with you.

But ever since this evil entity
came between us
all I've felt is our friendship falling through.

Anxiety you've given me!
From the beginning
I was there for you
but then I slowly pulled away,
at the same time our friendship did.
You see you lied to me.
'I know they're taking advantage of me'
but do you?
I look into your heart and soul
and you know what I find?
Lies.
Misunderstanding.
And somewhat betrayal.
This was never about jealousy.
This was about my life changing

By myself.
Am I alone?
Well, this time I am.
Counting the moments
and times to together.
Just wishing I wasn't.
It was something special
that we once had
but now that we're alone
everything is now gone.
And I'm slowly forgetting
what our friendship was
and what it meant to me
now that all I can see
is the alterated you.

What is there left say?
I think we have to go our ways.
It will be alright.
But I won't miss you tonight.
This is what it has to be.
No more of you and me.
It will be alright.
But I won't miss you tonight.
Can't it just be easy?
To have no more of you and me?
To be one person once again?
To only ever be friends.
So where will you be
this night without me?
It will be alright.

I've never been one of you.
I've roamed around with the few
that actually didn't care of my appearance.
I act like I don't care but, that's only my silence.
Inside I roar out with pain.
"Why can't my inner beauty reign?"
I scream, I pound and cry on the floor inside of me
but that never reveals my inner beauty.
My friends so gorgeous I can't believe

Clear my head of thoughts of you.
What part of no can't get through?
I try to escape to my mystical land
but instead of relief all I can feel is your hand,
and pain rushing through and breaking down my soul.
It ruins my ambition to reach my goals.
So now here we are.
You overshawdowing me and me lying on the floor.
Now all I ask is for one last breath

Drops of pain flow from me
and I am so numb.
Forget not the good times
and never the bad.
Help me to relieve myself
from everything bad.
From everything sad.
Just relieve this stress from
you and where our paths haven't crossed
and where we've losted
what our friendship is.
This pain grows worst
and I can't explain it at all.
I want to be happy
but I'm losing site of you.

Where have you gone?
Have I betrayed us?
Everyday I looked forward to us.
Round and round, it stopped and I didn't know.
Everyone with you,
Having the time of there life
And me just here wanting us back.
Vermen I spend more time with.
Everyone with you.
You with everyone.
OUR time is now YOUR's and THERE time.
Ugliness is the description under my name.
Gone.
Oh my gosh, I guess I

Fallen Angel
Its time to find your wings.
Unlock the door and
let the light shine through
cause I need an angel
to come rescue me.
Your journey ain't over
til you rest in peace.

I've lost something important
and it can't be found.
Its been gone for a while you see.

I've looked high and low
day in and day out
but it still won't come back to me.

Oh where, oh where
could it have gone?
I'm starting to loose my drive.

Sometimes I see it
but then it fades when I come near
so I almost give up to keep it alive.

So where ever you are
someday you might hear

Its not the silence which cuts like a knife.
Its the struggle of not answering a simple question.
Just staring.
Wondering.
Thinking
and wondering some more
about how a simple question
needs one simple answer
and how a simple mind like mine
can't seem to wrap my head around it.
This answer
is like the silence which surrounds me.
I can't see it but I know its there.

Tell me what it means
to fall in love
because I don't know.
Tell me why to love
and who to love
and how to love.
It's nothing I've never felt.
I watch them all.
The people who know these answers
and I always wonder:
How were they so lucky to find it?

Seymour the kitty loved to play.
He really loved cat nip.
He played all day and night with it.
Don’t touch it for he’ll nip.

Seymour would go everywhere for
He got bored easily.
He would never leave his cat nip.
That would just be silly.

One day Seymour was playing while
The ceiling fan was on.
He watched it turn. A fly flew in
And from there he was drawn.

Leroy the unicorn was pink and green.
He lived in the land of make believe.
All day he would play and all night he would sleep.
His life was perfect and he would never weep.
But one thing always disturbed his life,
and this thing caused Leroy great strife.

You may ask “What caused him such strife?”
When he grew older he noticed his parents weren’t pink and green.

The sound of the flushing toilet
was a stream of rushing water
tumbling over rocks. Like a bell
it rang through the halls, making us
aware of its cleansing. The water
begins to trickle over and
then floods every crevice of the
earthen floor of which begins
to smooth before us, becoming
soft and slick. But before we can
run to it, it stops awaiting
for the dam to release its

"I know its alot on your shoulders,
and I'm sorry for that,
but you're the only one that knows my history.
I love you so much and thanx for the chat."

This conversation always runs through my head.
Always day in and day out,
but everytime we talk another layer is added
and to tell you the truth I just want to SHOUT!

For the longest time we would mock them.

Whenever I get lonely
I look for my star
the one that will guide me
so ever far.

And when I get far
I turn around
just to find that
there is no one to be found.

And when no one is to be found
I look up in the sky
but my star isn't there
and I begin to cry

And when I cry
my tears create a pool
and my star's relflection is in it
and I laugh. I feel like a fool.

If only you knew.
Oh how much I want to tell you.
But would that be friend like or not?

If only you knew.
Everything about it is true.
Should I not tell you or give it a shot.

If only you knew.
What she's doing makes me blue.
Will the truth bring us to an end?

If only you knew.
Then this would all be through.
All I want is to be a good friend.

If only you knew.

Marshmellow jelly buried in the sky
swimming through the sun
eating everything that's not fried.
Twirling, jumping, skimming the moon.

Cutting Mars into whole notes
And erasing Mercury from the 18th galaxy.
Changing a remote
with the fluffly TV.

Around the asteroid belt it sleeps.
Sweating from a good days rest.
Under Jupiter it leaps.
Making Saturn it's vest.

If it were easy to say this
you would of known by now.
And if I could say my feelings
there would be no issue.
And if I could be fine with this
then I would be just fine.
And if I could take a breather
then I will say my thoughts.
But not letting me be to think
that's when my mind goes blank.
And that's where the problems begin.
And that's when I get frustrated.

Oliver the turkey spent his days
frolicking free without a care.
But what he didn't realize was
all of this would change come November.

You see Oliver was very naive
and refused to grow up.
The other turkeys tried to warn him.
He just said "Oh! Shut Up!"

"You guys need to relax! Our lives
are perfect here in the land of turkey!
And if you are 'so concerned'

I wish that I could
not tell a lie
For if I could
then you would know everything.

I wish that I could
sing in tune.
For if I could
then it would touch your heart.

I wish that I could
be Valentine's cupid.
For if I could
then I would mend your broken heart.

I wish that I could
be like Cinderella.
For if I could
then I would sweep away your problems.

I wish that I could

I guess I never really understood
why you loved him over me?
If I knew what to do I would,
just to relieve my agony.
Its not like this neglecting is new.
This feeling is one of my earliest memories.
You act as if I'm lying, like you have no clue
but with me everyone agrees.
When I address you about what you're doing
you say "he requires more attention than you".

Maxwell the potato
Lived in Lockio
Spending his days with his friends.

Tina the spud
Was his best bud
And their time was well spent.

They would roll around in pots
And get stuck in spots,
But don’t worry, Smickle the pickle was handy.

He always freed them from their doom
Whether they would tumble or went boom.
Thanks to him they were always fine and dandy.

Every little thing
Every little thing
Is pouring out from me
out from you.
I can't breathe.
Help me relieve
this stress from me
which comes from you.
I know you love me so
and don't think I don't love you
but I really need
to be relieved
from you.