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Sonia
Submitted by gradster1 on Tue, 08/31/2010 - 7:21pmLover- lover, lover...
It wasn't entirely on my mind the way I
Intended it to be.
It happened.
The truth- well, it hurts to say.
So soon after I was so shocked after I was
Awed by how this world
Lets us go; we can try momentarily...
But we get tossed off
This delicacy of interconnectivity- I found it
Satisfying to the extreme, extremes meeting, forming
Circular cycles. Twisted in two, broken and meeting
Simultaneously.
I can't stand it.
Aren't we all?
That was yesterday... The truth- I won't fight it.

Keep Me
Submitted by gradster1 on Sun, 08/29/2010 - 10:45amI found this recently- a handful of words from last year I had saved in a document called 'Keep Me'. Even when I finally finished it today, the title stuck.
A double is a step forward
In a world so full of steps back.
Who are we to prevent double stop
In such a concentrated illusion?
A cellist is comforted
By the solid feel
Of a presence to curl around;
They have a second body-
Human substitute-
Granted,
It is comprised of wood
And varnish
And curves
(But humans are comprised of bones
And blood
And curves
And how is that any different?)

Just Words
Submitted by gradster1 on Sat, 08/07/2010 - 2:08amIt look's like you don't have Adobe Flash Player installed. Get it now.
Now with added sound.

In Place Of
Submitted by gradster1 on Tue, 08/03/2010 - 11:48pmi. Lightning-split, she lies prone at your side
Hips graze naked hips as she wonders
Why have you abandoned your horizontality?
She smiles, bemused...
Then wraps her hands around your waist-
The perfect match
To the heat rising from
The gentle concave dip in your back.
She pulls you down
The pressure inappropriate
Yet effective...
And you kiss distractedly
As the warmth of your skin seeps
Deep into the porcelain.
ii. Her voice must not have been
Translucent & ferocious-
It must not have been tempered & raw
It must not have been
It could not have been

What You Wish For
Submitted by gradster1 on Wed, 07/14/2010 - 7:29pmIt look's like you don't have Adobe Flash Player installed. Get it now.
I've been working on this all day without really knowing why. The only reason I'm uploading this in its unfinished form is that people want to hear what I've got so far- and this is the easiest way to do it.
I think I'll finish it tomorrow.
Without further ado, though, have a listen to my a capella cover of Guster's What You Wish For. (The only non-voice component is me hitting things- my desk, a book, or my head, I'm pretty sure.)
The lyrics, up to where I got (which is three quarters of the way through the bridge):
Woke up today to everything grey

Just Words
Submitted by gradster1 on Tue, 07/13/2010 - 12:50pmLife is just a series of chance encounters, funny, that; poetry is just a series of idiots thinking they can sum life in so many words. These are just as not special as the next or the previous or the simultaneous and I don't mean to be cynical, but hasn't the world got better things to do than cater to the whims of its misbegotten children? We've already forgotten how it is to be. What we all knew when we were five and we were all five and that's what really brings us together, is it not?

Testing/Edit: Question
Submitted by gradster1 on Mon, 01/18/2010 - 7:38pmNevermind, no longer testing, because I have a rather serious question: Why is there no longer a delete function?

Did You Notice The Way We All Change Our Names?
Submitted by gradster1 on Thu, 01/14/2010 - 5:55pmI'm losing my poetry and I'm losing myself and part of me- and I don't- and I can't care.
Je m'oublie, she said this afternoon, would not be correct. Hopefully you would not forget yourself! You are attached to you, I would think.
You would be wrong, ma dame, I wanted to say. Reflexive verbs or not; I can still say this in two completely different ways, and though I know in the literal sense you cannot understand one of them, I also know that in every other sense you cannot even begin to comprehend any of them.
I think someone did care, once.

Happy Goddamn New Year
Submitted by gradster1 on Fri, 01/01/2010 - 5:08pmIt look's like you don't have Adobe Flash Player installed. Get it now.
Title's a quote from a cool A Fine Frenzy Song. Qwertygirl'll know it.
You might recognise sampling from Hay Burner by Count Basie and Hello Seattle (Remix) by Owl City. You will probably not recognise the sample from Your Horoscope For Today by 'Weird Al' Yankovic, but it's in there.
Copyright © 2008 - either Bunmi Hazzan or Ganiyu Hazzan; I can't tell which. Sorry for ruining it, whoever you are.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt XXII
Submitted by gradster1 on Sat, 12/12/2009 - 1:27pmSuper long section - almost two thousand words - but it all goes together, so you'll just have to bear with me.
Jess needs work. She's just a shell right now. She'll get a HUGE makeover while I'm editing.
Word count at this point: 13668. Somewhere between days ten and eleven.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt XXI
Submitted by gradster1 on Sat, 12/12/2009 - 1:22pmA shorter sleeping sequence. I could have made this longer and fit it better to the story, but at this point I wasn't really fully sure about where I was going with it. When I'm editing, I'll change it.
Word count at this point: 11961. I think this would be about day ten.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt XX
Submitted by gradster1 on Sat, 12/12/2009 - 1:07pmYou must think I've given up, YWP! Well, it's no wonder. I haven't really been exactly diligent about posting - after the first third of the month, that is - and I don't blame you for getting that impression.
Well, I'm sorry. But here's the rest as an apology gift! Now that there's so much of it, I'll try to make the sections a bit longer, so as not to clog the site.
From where I left off (I'll add a paragraph from the last one for perspective):

NaNoWriMo Excerpt XIX
Submitted by gradster1 on Mon, 11/09/2009 - 8:47pmThe season could be a problem. I'd intended for it to be summer, but that doesn't work so well if school's still in session.
Word count: 10509.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt XVIII
Submitted by gradster1 on Mon, 11/09/2009 - 8:44pmA bit long. How do you like Patrick? Word count: 10112.
Harry arrived at the top of the stairs, already more relaxed. The house had a calming effect on him that didn't seem to be completely limited to his mind - his limbs were feeling a little heavy as well. Perhaps he'd take a nap, though it was a little late for that. He'd probably be called down for dinner soon, if that was the way this family operated.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt XVII
Submitted by gradster1 on Mon, 11/09/2009 - 8:28pmSorry for the delay. The weekend was a little hectic writing-wise. I didn't get as much as I wanted done. Word count: 9323.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt XV
Submitted by gradster1 on Fri, 11/06/2009 - 1:50pmWell, there's a natural break, if I ever saw one.
Don't worry - I'm posting the next section in a few seconds, so you won't be left with a cliffhanger for long.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt XIV
Submitted by gradster1 on Fri, 11/06/2009 - 1:46pmA nice little interlude between Harry sections. Sorry it's so long - there weren't really any natural breaks during the section.
Kate had learned to ride her first bike at age eight. It was something she was very proud of, and every summer since, she had biked everywhere that was within her range, which only grew as the years passed. By the time she was thirteen, Kate was racking up at least fifteen miles a day during the summer, and a good five on the days the weather allowed her to bike to school and back.

NanoWriMo Excerpt XIII
Submitted by gradster1 on Thu, 11/05/2009 - 12:17pmThe attractive poker - Kate - had led him on a winding track throughout the school that was apparently his normal routine with her. It was a very good thing that she had been in a hurry and needed to prepare to bike back home, because those two things meant that Harry could get away with being the worst best friend known to mankind. He stared intently at everything he could get his eyes onto, and even more intently as time went on and he was surer he would be staying, paying as little attention as he could to Kate.

NanoWriMo Excerpt XII
Submitted by gradster1 on Thu, 11/05/2009 - 12:15pmSorry for not posting these last night.
Harry Blain opened his eyes. Then he closed them again. Then, once more, he opened them. He shut his eyelids for a final time, opening them with a snap. Harry Blain was still on a bus.
Harry Blain had high hopes for this one.

NanoWriMo Excerpt XII
Submitted by gradster1 on Thu, 11/05/2009 - 12:15pmSorry for not posting these last night.
Harry Blain opened his eyes. Then he closed them again. Then, once more, he opened them. He shut his eyelids for a final time, opening them with a snap. Harry Blain was still on a bus.
Harry Blain had high hopes for this one.

NanoWriMo Excerpt XI
Submitted by gradster1 on Wed, 11/04/2009 - 10:33pmNow do you see?
Well, maybe you don't. But here's a part of it.
Her thoughts were rudely interrupted by a hand slapping a paper onto the surface in front of her. “Pay attention, Miss Zaber,” ordered the instructor, Mr. Griffin, as he passed her desk.

NanoWriMo Excerpt X
Submitted by gradster1 on Wed, 11/04/2009 - 9:49pmNota bene again: Any formatting - italics, the like - will be lost. That said, read on. Oh, and to the person that has been making this a book page thing- thank you so much. I wanted to do that, but did not have the time.

NanoWriMo Excerpt IX
Submitted by gradster1 on Wed, 11/04/2009 - 12:01amThe last excerpt for tonight. As promised, my total word count: 5138, the minimum being 5000. It may not look like much, but it felt really satisfying to pound those extras out.

NanoWriMo Excerpt VIII
Submitted by gradster1 on Tue, 11/03/2009 - 11:59pmI quite enjoyed this. Foreshadowing and actual planning - no way!

NanoWriMo Excerpt VII
Submitted by gradster1 on Tue, 11/03/2009 - 11:56pmI'll take advantage of the shortness of this section to explain that tonight - au contraire - was not, in fact, a so-called 'bad night'. I finished strong with a good solid... Well, you'll have to read the last excerpt from tonight to find out the total. But my word count for today was 1766.
On with the regularly scheduled program.

NanoWriMo Excerpt VI
Submitted by gradster1 on Tue, 11/03/2009 - 7:39pmWord count is low- only 3555. This is not looking like a good night.

NanoWriMo Excerpt V
Submitted by gradster1 on Mon, 11/02/2009 - 9:55pmWord count: 2806. Nearing the daily goal of 3334.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt IV
Submitted by gradster1 on Mon, 11/02/2009 - 9:03pmNota bene: Any formatting that should be present - italics and such - will be lost in the copy/paste process. Sorry, but I don't have time to go through and edit.

NaNoWriMo Excerpt III
Submitted by gradster1 on Sun, 11/01/2009 - 9:15pmWord count: 1410. Hopefully this will not be a long night.
Where was a risky choice. Though it seemed less stupid at first than who, whoever was with him would generally also assume he would know where he was- though this hadn’t been quite as true in one case when he’d woken up in a hospital. That had been a good one, indeed. A whole family waiting right there for him, ready to take him under their wing; to comfort him and make him feel loved. In any case, where was not the correct option.

