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He talks of change
Change for America
and as news broke today
Obama is our countries next president
adults patted kids and teens on the back
Your time has come in him
He will lead your generation
We are to old to see it
but he will lead you
to a brighter tomorrow
I believe it
and Yes We Can

Overlook farm in Rutland MA. Learning about Heifer international. Feeding Yaks and Rabbits. Milking goats named Rachel. Making lunch in Thiland, then sleeping in Mexico. Bartering at the market for kale and garlic, then making a stew no one liked. Starving all night long. Hard wooden structures to sleep on. Freezing, wishing to be home in my own bed with heat instead of in a shack at 28 degrees. Coming home and appreciating the heat, the good food, and, most of all, my nice warm bed.

they are preparing
starting to build the barrier
to the pain there prepared to feel
when their little girl
leaves thier house
and heads into
the great big world

she is on a leash
being released more and more
little by little
day by day
week by week
until the end of next year
when they will finally
let the leash drop
and she will be free
to fly

she is leaving them now
they have prepared her
she knows right from wrong
and will learn along the way
her turn to be herself

The presidential debate starts in 15 minutes. I have been watching the CBS news for a few days and they have been interviewing the 2 candidates for VP. I am hoping that Biden wins the debate tonight. I agree with most of his views and think he and Obama would do a good job running our country. Palin, in interviews I have seen appears unintelligent and unknowledgeable. I think this is going to be a very heated debate, maybe worse than the 1st presidential debate. My friends are not really interested in this, but I have a US history class that has been discussing it. We will see.

My arm extends
it tenses
I am reaching
R-E-A-C-H-I-N-G
for something I can't yet have
I stand on my toes
and yet, it still is out of reach
My fingers brush it
but are not close enough to snatch it down
I want it with all my heart
with all of my soul
I must grow another 1/4 inch
before I can reach out
extend my arms
my fingers
and finally reach the long awaited prize

1. The world is still spinning, hearts still beating, and people still living but not for me.

2. My mind still clings to the last hug before you walked away and left me.

3. His blue eyes sparkle with tears he is to afraid to let go as he walks away from her.

Today
we are waiting
sitting on our buts
waiting
waiting for the world to change
waiting for our lives to be handed to us
waiting for our train in the morning
waiting for the package in the mail
waiting for our lives to start
waiting for the end of the school day
waiting for the end of your life
jump up
grab what we want
yank at it until we get it
Then we fall over backwards
with what we want
in our hands
satisfied.

Vs 1:
The teenage girl stands
in the doorway
looking at her mother
with not much to say
"I'm leaving now
I'll try to come back somehow
but you will always know
that where ever I go"

Chorus:
I will always love you
always always love you
through and through
till the end of time i will
love you
always always love you
love you
i love you

Vs 2:
The 25 year old woman
stands by to her man
she talks to him
and hopes he'll understand
"I have to leave you now
I'll try to come back somehow
but you will always know
that where ever I go"

Chorus

Vs 3:
The mother stands
looking at her baby
she will find him again someday
maybe, just maybe. she says
"I have to leave you now
I'll try to come back somehow
but you will always know
where ever I go"

Chorus

Vs. 1
In our lives
we're foarced to run
place to place
no time for fun
I need to move on
from this crazy hell
be free
to be myself

Chorus:
life is before me
a fork in the road
wish I knew
where I am ment to go
in the end
it doesn't even matter
bacause it's not the destination
its the journey that counts

Vs 2:
learn
to slow down
smell the flowers
and not quietly drown
in the sweat
from our own bodies
as we push to hard

Chorus

Bridge:
If I die tomorrow
I want to stand
at the gates of heaven
and be pround of what I've done
and who I am

Chorus

Remember the memories
the sad and happy times too
And through it all,
i've loved you
this is true

I will never forget
meeting you
loving you

How can i
forget you

I may never see you
again once we are parted
and when you leave
i will surely be broken hearted
I can feel the tears
i feel them coming on
please don't leave me
here alone
with my song

we've lived through it all
friends until the end
and i will never forget you
my love and my friend

Vs. 1
Please just listen
Listen to the sound
can't you hear it
it's ringing so loud
the whisper of the wind
the rustle of the leaves
the music of the morning
the buzzing of the bees

Chorus:
The quite things in life
the ones we often miss
the beating of a heart
the sound of a kiss
But if you have the right kind of ears
then you can often hear
the silent things in life
on the other side of the everyday worl
that no one else can hear
just listen

Vs. 2
Rain on a tin roof
when you're lyin in bed
the movement of the field
with flowers round your head
the heartbeat of the one you love
as you breathe together
listening to eachother
for always and forever

Chorus

Bridge:
When times get tough
and your goin down
just sit
and brethe
and listen

Chorus

I run across the yard
barefoot and free
the grass is cool
underneath my toes
but then the driveway
the sharp pain of the gravel
only slight at first
from the rocks that have strayed
but more and more as I
keep moving on across
heading in the same directon as always.
They poke and prod my feet,
until I can no longer
stand to be barefoot
I retreat to the safety of the house

The world around me is
dark
and depressing
it is so full of
hate
and anger
That people around me cannot
stop
to smile at rainbows
People don't have energy left to
laugh
and their own stupid mistakes
People don't have the guts to
apologize
when they are wrong
and they know it
There is way to much
sorrow
and sadness
hate
and anger
That we don't see
that beam of light

When I close my eyes
I am in a small
safe
world of my own.
No war or fighting
no killing or dying
so quiet
no unhappy people
or homeless on the corner
just me
and my breath
entering and leaving my body
and i sit here
and there is no sound
no hurt feelings
nothing
just me

When you look
into my eyes
what you must see
inside.
Is a girl
strong and tall
but so soft
on the inside.

You can see
straight to my soul
you can see
my music.
Bubbling
inside of me
waiting to be let
free

And you can see
into my heart
and see
my love for
you.

When you look
into my eyes
can you see
my past
behind me?

All of the
good times
and the
bad.

Verse 1:
Beautiful Girl
Beautiful Life
Perfect Hair
and Brillent Smile
Running together
you and I
with our feet bare
across the grass

Beautiful Girl
Lover of Life
Everyday was
and adventure.
You had a life
planned out for you
you were gone so soon
How could I have known?

Chorus: Why'd you have to go and leave
me here all alone
How could you leave you family
crying at home
Everyone whose loved someone
knows what its like to lose love
and everone whose ever cared
about another
knows how hard it is
to say
"Goodbye"

Verse 2:
Beautiful Girl
Beautiful Life
wearing a wig
Cause' the kemo took your
Beautiful Hair
but you still had
your beautiful smile
and you had me

Chorus: Why'd you have to go and leave
me here all alone
How could you leave you family
crying at home
Everyone whose loved someone
knows what its like to lose love
and everone whose ever cared
about another
knows how hard it is
to say
"Goodbye"

Verse 3:
Beautiful Girl
What a great life
so sad it had to
end so soon
Now you are up
in heaven above
and I know
you're waiting for me

Chorus (x2): Why'd you have to go and leave
me here all alone
How could you leave you family
crying at home
Everyone whose loved someone
knows what its like to lose love
and everone whose ever cared
about another
knows how hard it is
to say
"Goodbye"

I see you
coming towards me
my mouth dries
all the words
i have so carefully planned in my head
everything i want to tell you
it says locked
behind the closed doors of my mind
and you will never know
how much i care
unitl i learn
to open the doors
and let out my heart

Have you ever noticed
in this little world we call high school that
all the blondes want to be brunette
all the brunettes want to be blonde
all the girls with straight hair want curls
all the girls with curls want straight
all the tall people want to be shorter
all the short people want to be taller
all the kids with blue eyes want brown
all the kids with brown eyes want blue
the list goes on
for pages on end
we always want what we don’t have
and no matter what we get
we always want more
Will we ever be satisfied with what we have?
Or will we spend our life
changing
everything about ourselves
until we can't recognize that face in the mirror
because nothing is the same as it was before

Somedays
all we want to do is
grow up
move on
away from this small town

Sometimes
i can just see myself in the
big city
bright lights
lots of people everywhere

I will
have my own flat in the city with
bright walls
crazy furniture
and a room that i can sing as loud as i want

But maybe
some nights might get lonely
by myself
in the dark
with no one around

The smell of paint fills my nostrils
the room is decorated with paintings from past students
I sit on a stool
pencil in hand
and dig deep for inspiration
"I want you to make a shield with a symbol that represents you on it"
That’s the assignment
my heart tells me what really needs to be on that shield
slowly, I sketch my shield

I look at the people
my friends
fellow singers
standing on the chorus risers beside me
they all whisper
Good Luck
Break a Leg
You can do it!
I slowly step off the risers
onto the floor
by myself
the audience looks at me in antisipation
inside the program they recieved by the door
it says plain and clear
"Oh Holy Night"
Soloist: Me
i walk to my place
my hands shake
my knees shake
my heart pounds
but inside
i am calm
slowly breathing
as the piano starts to play
i breathe one last time
before i open my mouth
and let the sound out
i let a piece of me
of my soul
out into the air
it rushes out of me
and into the ears of the audience
they hear it
they listen
closly ,it seems, for any mistakes
but mistakes dont seem to come
i hit all the notes
high and low
my voice floats
over the crowd
the chorus comes in behind me
strong and steady
we smile
we tell the story of Christmas Eve
"O Holy Night when Christ was born"
until the last note is sung

my mistake
can it ever be fixed?
my lack of words
at the right time
have made me lose you
you are with her
perfect her
everything i'm not
everything i always want to be
and all because
i made the mistake
the choice
to keep my thoughts
my love
to myself
hold it inside
no matter how hard it was
and now your gone
and i have no one to blame
to yell at for making the mistake

i stand here
with the soft rain falling on my face
and i think of you
you
my friend since 1st grade
you
with your great smile, joyful laugh, and strong voice
you who can always make me smile
you
who has embedded yourself in my heart
and when i try to move away
you tug at the strings of my heart
and bring me back to where i should be
like a dog on a leash
but i am happy

By Rachael D. Sanguinetti
U-32 High School, Grade 10

The music that comes out when I open my mouth
and let the air rush out,
It is beautiful, everyone says
“What a great voice,” they say
“Thank You,” I reply with a shy smile
I am not usually shy
but when it comes to my voice
I crumble at the slightest compliment
Sometimes
some days
my voice is bigger than me
it fills the room
and is pretty,
people love it
and appreciate the music i can make
Some days,
as weird as it sounds,
I wish I could be as big as my voice makes me look,
I wish I could be as big as my voice makes me feel inside.

Summer Vacation
no school
no homework
and no friends

we are all too busy
with camps
vacations
and other things
to see eachother

i love summer vacation
but i am lonely today
missing my friends
wishing
just a little
i was at school

A young girl
walking with her parents
through the most amazing city
on earth

A street
dark, except for the strretlights on one side
The lights of NYC are bright
but not bright enough to calm her fears of the dark

A box
large and brown
falling apart at the seams
discarded in a doorway

The girl walks by
noticing the box
but not thinking much about it
until it moves

My Dad

My dad
my hero
flew to JFK yesterday
into New York

Then i hear
A terror plot has just been cut off
they were going to blow up the airport
no more terrorists
but what if

What if it had gone through
my dad woulnd't be here
he would be gone from the rest of my life

No more memories
No high school graduation or
no college graduation with him at my side
no wedding day

My two best stars

My friends
my pals
the ones who care about me
truly care

How could I forget them
I was trying to make new friends
Enrich my life with new blood
but in the process
i forgot them
lost contact
maybe even said some things i shouldn't have

Tears
Large
Rolling down my cheeks
just thinking about how mean i have been
how little i cared
how much i ignored them

Courage
the inner power to do something
others don't want to
are afraid to do

Courage
doind something hard
possibably terrifying
because your inner gut
says it is the right thing to do

Couage
we all have it
burried down
deep in our soul
like a powerful ant
deep in the ground
waiting to break the surface
and use its power
for good

Today at school, Mr. John Halligan came and spoke. He told the story of his son. (Click here for the story of his son, Ryan.)

But what really stuck with me is what he said at the very end of his presentation. He said his art teacher said it to him when he was in High School: