happyanddeceived's blog

They walked a road of sorrow
Waiting on the light of tomorrow
For now he'd been gone a day or so
To greater things then we'd ever know

I can't see you
Wonder why?
I'm not as strong
as before you died

"Oh, friends of mine
Shall we dine?
Partake a drop of wine?
Oh, friends of mine."

I can't see you
Wonder why?
I'm not as strong
as before you died

In that moment they recognized
The man they'd known, and before their eyes
He disappeared into the night
And so became your fragile state of mind

I can't see you
Wonder why?
I'm not as strong
because he lied

And they ask themselves as they retire
"Weren't our hearts burning with desire?"

When I was put down in the classroom, the teachers just kind said "stop that" and went back to teaching. Then I got my story "High School" published within the YWP section. Suddenly, all the teachers were worried and red flags went up everywhere. Nothing is wrong. I'm not going to do anything drastic. But don't you think they put up red flags a little to late?

He was the light
that made me blind
He was the sky
I'd never seen
And all the words
I could not find
He made them more
beautiful than they seem

Time came to pass
and he drifted away
Time can never last
and it soon was her day
The sun I'd always loved
Could never warm my heart
When push came to shove
it was me left in the dark

Though you can hurt me

Sort of a song I made up...I just wanted some feedback...

NOTE: Many of the lines in the song are based off of verses from the actual script.

he swore upon the moon
who shines so bright
he compared her to the sun
in all it's brightness
but even though they rise
they both must die sometime

do you see this blood that flows
from the flesh you broke with your hate

Fairytales begin
with 'once upon a time'
but so can songs
and lives

Fairytales have princesses
with golden flowing hair
but so can songs
and lives

Fairytales have endings
with 'happily ever after'
but so can songs
but not our lives

I am a Catholic that isn't sure if God exists. So shoot me. Apparently everyone else in my religion class wants to, so why shouldn't you?

When I first started high school I heard alot about change. How your friends, your school work, and probably your life would change. I didn't think much of this. I mean, I knew change was going to happen, I just didn't know it would be this drastic.

It started with schoolwork where I began to slip. I wasn't understanding anything and I got lost easily. My quizzes were horrible and I'd forget to do my homework sometimes. I finally caught it all up, but I still sometimes see myself slip.

Then came the friend changes. I have been really close with this group of friends for years. Suddenly, it seems like we're all going different ways. Some of them are doing drugs and trying to impress a bunch of seniors. One of them told me about their pot experience and said "If you tell I'll kill you." None of the people I call friends wants to hear about my thoughts because they're too busy talking about how horrible they're lives are or those seniors they want to date or other things.

Then comes the life changes. I'm feeling sad a lot of them time. I feel like I'm trapped in this pit and every time something bad happens it gets deeper. It's like I'm drowning and no one can help me. I've been talking to my parents about this feeling, I've been talking to everyone I know about this feeling, but I don't feel like they can help. They can't keep the bad stuff from happening. I have never felt so alone in my whole life.

I feel like crap and I just want all of this to end. I haven't really thought about suicide. But I have thought of drugs and had some alcohol, but I stopped. I've had dreams of dying, but they scare me more than anything. And I don't know what else to do. I don't want to die. I don't want to start up on drugs or sex or alcohol. I just...don't know. I want to dissappear, I guess. To not have to deal with any of this.

I just feel...

This is a song I just wrote...it's based off of the blog entry I wrote before this one.

Corner to corner
Wall to wall
Please just leave me
For I may fall
And I don't mend easily

You have opened
Brand new doors
A beautiful paradise just for us

You can take it all away
So easily
You can stay with me forever
And never leave
Or you could kiss me here tonight
And say goodbye

When you're 14 (and a half) everything is a big deal. And as adults say 'we're a little dramatic'. But, I can't help but think about this one guy. I've been friends with him for over two years now, and I didn't really know what he was like until a few months ago at a party. Now, you must know, I'm a bit prejudice when it comes to guys.

Ever had one of those days where things seem okay for a while, and then suddenly it all rushes downhill?