falling again


i am sitting in my
science class and
i am falling from the
sky.

it's quite strange being
up here, so high i can't
feel my own heartbeat.

the clouds taste like
a shirley temple, like
cherries, like
childhood.

i am sitting in my
science classroom and
i am planning my escape from
this small town, this
beautiful, horrible,
small town.

how many years can you
sit in the same place
without your head splitting
open and letting all
your thoughts run dry?

i don't know.

i want to keep running
away from my monster,
but he always seems to 
catch me in the end,
and to be honest?

he's not too bad
of a guy.
he's a listener.

i want to breathe,
but my lungs gave out,
and it's hard to
catch your breath
when you're falling
from the sky, isn't it.

so here,

i am sitting in my 
science classroom trying
not to scream because
my goddamn heart is numb
and i don't know
how to fix it.

ivyparks

VT

15 years old

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