Carolyn

I don't know how to write about this quite yet,
I don't know how much guilt I've added within the past few days
Where you have been gone and how much existed before:
Not visiting you when I should have
Not calling you on your birthday
Taking our dinner dates for granted.

I went to your apartment a week ago
To bring you a sunflower (they were her favorite, but I know you already knew that, best friends have to).
You weren't home, out to lunch by yourself again.
I walked away without much worry

I wish I had stuck around.

You loved me without question,
And I to you.

I've already lost most of my family in these past
14 years but I guess He wanted one more.

Now you are higher than this pen or keyboard shall ever go.
Please tell my grandparents about how sometimes
I'm still the little child they said goodbye to years ago
And remember how even though our veins ran differently
You were more of a grandmother to me than
She was around long enough to be.

Thank you for loving me and teaching me
And most of all,
Thank you for helping me remember them.