How I Live Now

This is how I live now.
Once, I lived fast
And I could not stop for a moment
To appreciate the world around me—
I was running with the wind
Flying so high
That I was hanging from the stars
On a glowing, galactic swing.

This is how I live now.
Now, I get through
Day by day by day
And my eyes flicker around me
And view the faded light—
I can't climb a mountain
Because the view from the top
Is just more heights.

This is how I live now.
I have to believe 
I'm going to be okay,
But it doesn't feel that way
And I'm lonely and low
And blasting music in my ears
To drown out whatever is drowning me.

This is how I live now.

 

Silent Wolf

MA

19 years old

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