Bedside Scrum - This one goes out to all you couples.

all i wanted was you to understand not to tell your friends and bitch about me and i'm not angry at you and i hope you understand that, but it really pisses me off when you don't tell me these things that girls usually blame guys for not talking about and did you ever think to notice that maybe the reason guys don't comment on your new haircut is maybe because we're not shallow but we're not PETTY and don't care about how many friends you have or your bra size or how you look so beautiful tonight because you're there at least and we're so grateful for that and yes we are, because you're you and that's all that matters to us but let's return to reality you say and i suppose we should because if you can't accept that i don't know what'll get through and maybe i shouldn't care anymore about you because i'm not getting anything in return and something's certainly due me considering i work my butt off each day just like you and i can tell you that i probably have just as many problems if not more (though it's unfair to assume that and i'm sorry, so nevermind) that i have to deal with every day so i do know one thing and that is that i am just as angry or depressed or whatever you're feeling on average because we go through the same things and i wish that would mean we understood but we still don't so maybe we should go our separate ways and end this talk and end our lives together once and for all because i don't know if i'm ready for this kind of commitment and maybe i shouldn't be maybe my mother was right and i should wait until i'm older and wiser even though i always thought that was bullshit because i know i'm ready and i wish the whole world could open up to each other because we're all in our little fucking shells shooting little pea-cannons at each other and even though every once and a while we cut a hole in the side to hold hands with someone it's not a very big hole and people shoot at your hands and afterwards the hole is a huge target and i hope you like metaphors, i'm sorry, because i do and that's how i feel about our situation so why don't you just think it over because i wish this had never happened, you know it always tears us apart and tearing is such a good word for this because it feels like someone grafted a second heart to mine and now it's been ripped off and all i can feel is that because it's overpowering like this feeling i'm getting right now and surely it can't be true because it's absurd that after all this

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i love you