Define Special

He gave me flowers
kissed my cheak
made me feel special
whenever he could
we had fun
in the good days
when it would be
just him and I
he came to my house
one night
I walked into the room
I saw him on the floor
his blood soaking the rug
his face pale
O MY GOD
I thought
I saw headlights shining into the window
I heard a bang
the sound of a gun
then I was on the floor too
next to him
I heard a siren
then it all went dark

Next thing I remember was the beeping of the moniter
my eyes slowly opened
I heard my mothers voice
"She's awake"
she said
"Where is he?"
I asked in a dry voice
"Who sweety?"
she said softly
"my boyfriend"
"he's not hear"
her voice sounded sad
"Then where is he?"
my voice cracked a bit
"He's dead honey"
she said sadly and walked out of the room
my eyes started to water
tears rolling down my eyes
my chest bouncing like it does when I cry
all I did was cry
I cryied myself to sleep

I had a dream
it was about him and me
we were sitting together
at the lake
him supporting my body with his
and then he disapeared
never saw him again
I kept dreaming the same dream
over and over
reminding me that he was gone
forever
never coming back
and so I cried
and cried
and cried
and was alone in my room
me and my tears
just crying