After Looking Closer

I don't know why red fades before blue- it just does. -Ani DiFranco

If you want answers, you have to ask.
"We don't owe you questions."
Yes, you do. You owe me alot.

For people that seem to love so much,
the two of you look inward the most.
See me as an over hormonal, emotional teenager,
because I am .

I am not sorry that I am.

When you talk to me
and spit rains into the air directly in front of you
I do not see a protector;
I just see an adult.

I am trying to tell myself that growing up
is not that bad; there must be
a point to all this.

You wiped all my tears last night because
you were the closest.
Can't you see,
you are the reason I have given up?

I cried because I am the sorriest excuse for a
feminist I have ever seen.
And because for all the times I thought they were getting better,
they were just pretending.
And because I have over a year of high school left.
And because the human race is selfish.

Who cannot argue back?