May 08
poem 0 comments challenge: General

Struggling

Sinking lower into the pitch-black waters,
Ears filled with water and white noise.
Lungs burn, begging for more air.
Someone help me.
I try to swim up,
But I don't know which direction "up" is anymore.
I've lost my sense of direction.
I'm stuck in this place.
I sink faster with each second.
My head pounds as blood tries to flow to it.
I look around in all directions,
Trying to find the sunlight of the day.
My lungs have had enough;
They open, and water fills them
As I'm dragged down to a watery grave.

I see you give me that look out of the corner of my eye.
I know that I've just embarrassed myself.
Please, please, please spare me the extra embarrassment.
Don't do anything to humiliate me further.
I know by the way you look at me that it's a no-go;
Your answer is a "no".
Frankly, I'm very relieved that you're saying no.
I knew from the beginning it was that way;
I was just blinded by what I wanted to see.
It's not your fault;
It never was your fault.
I'm not going to force you to feel a way you don't.
I'm not like that.
So, I guess this is farewell.

 

About the Author: Leah.W
"True humility is not thinking less of yourself; it is thinking of yourself less" -C.S Lewis
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