Stupid

I felt so Alive.
Brought back from Death
Death by heart break
I took a shot
And I lost my breath
while I was with you.
I needed something new
I thought I'd found something true.
But the more time we'd spent
the more the real you
started to come through.
In the end
it hurt even more
For me to have learned
I Honestly Can't Trust Anymore

I don't get
Why you smoke
Waste away your life
In embers and ashes

Sounds stupid to me

Are you trying
To kill yourself?
Whether or not
You were addicted
Before or after

I don't care
She died of cancer
Which you can cause
By inhaling
By exhaling

That alone
Should make you
Want to stop

So it's not easy
Life's not easy
You've gotten through
Half of yours
And you've probably
Leaned on friends and family

Well
That's what you
Need to do

There are people
Who care about you
Why won't you care
About yourself?

Too many great people
Pass away
From things they can't
Control

Wouldn't it be a waste
To pass away from something
You can control?

Life has purpose
If you feel like
You have nothing left
To offer
You're pretty stupid

You're a role model
For me
For her
For so many people

You were there for us
Let us be there for you

i can't take it
can't take it anymore
the monotony
of everyday
where nothing
nothing happens

the same bland people
telling the same jokes
I hate them, I think.

the same stupid school
leaves me feeling
like an idiot
even though I know it's everyone else

I'm going crazy, I think.
it's hard
I can't do it

and if I can't make it
here
than what says I can
anywhere else?

I'm scared
scared that I'll amount
only to nothing
become a nothing
like most people here
who think they're something
but they're nothing
those stupid
horrible
nothings
I don't wanna be a
nothing.

i need to get out
get out
get out of this place

but will they let me leave?
could I even leave?

it's just pointless
so why should I care anymore?

I know
that I'm stupid
and that I couldn't survive
anywhere else
but I'd rather be anywhere
anywhere than here.

My stupid mouth.
It has it's own definitions for things,
and when it says one thing,
it means another,
but no one understands my stupid mouth,
so they get offended,
really offended.
I mean something innocent,
and it comes out wrong,
and I dont mean it that way,
believe me.
So sometimes,
my stupid mouth
makes me want to cry,
especially right now...

There is so much controversy
Of the president's stupidity
For sending poor men
To fight for something unknown

So many people don’t understand
Why soldiers are dying
At wars ugly hand

I don’t know what's going on
It's still unclear to me
I'm trying to have fun
I wish it would just be done.