Karsen J. Woods

Tick
Tock
Tick
Tock
The Clock ticked. Sweat formed on my upper lip. He was sitting right there! I knew he was thinking it too!
R iiiiiiiii N G!
Stupid phone.
"Well," he said reluctantly, "There's my mom..."
"Yeah." I said in reply. Honestly? I mean come on! Just tell him!
Ugh.
Maybe tomarrow...
Here we go.
Same scene, different day.
The clock ticked. Sweat formed on my upper lip.
"Charlie?"
I said, whispered, actually.
His gorgeous brown eyes slowly drifted toward me.
"I have to tell you something!"
We said in unison. 'Completely syncronized, we're perfect for each other...' I thought to myself
We both laughed, we were both uncomfortable.
His perfect, white, teeth reveled the most mesmerizing grin.
"you first." I said, thinking that just maybe, he was wanting to tell me the same thing I was about to tell him.
"I finally asked Amanda out!!" he exclaimed. I suddenly lost my breath. It felt like the wind had just been knocked out of me.
My
Heart

Where would I be without You?
What would life be like,
if it were missing You?
If I was without the on that
Hurt
Me the most?
Where would I be without
Abandonment?
Pain?
Would life be easier
if I could go Everyday
without feeling Traded?
Where would I be without the
Man
That I see four times a year?
I wouldn't be.
If it weren't for that Man.
If it weren't for my Dad.

Oh here They go again
I sometimes feel bad for her
her Friends treat her like crap
There's never anyone that loves her enough to defend her
Poor Lost Girl.
She doesn't have a clue
In Their little Clique
she just blends
When she really
Has No Friends
Everyone will feel guilty
when by choice
Her Life Ends

I felt so Alive.
Brought back from Death
Death by heart break
I took a shot
And I lost my breath
while I was with you.
I needed something new
I thought I'd found something true.
But the more time we'd spent
the more the real you
started to come through.
In the end
it hurt even more
For me to have learned
I Honestly Can't Trust Anymore

Little Hints.
Hidden smiles.
A little extra blush.
Something more beautiful
Something new.
Anything,
To Be Noticed By You..

I've been over bumps
In My life's road.
I've forced smiles
Depsite the lies I've been told
I have taught myself to love
Through all the hate.
If you look into my heart
you will see the break
If you look into my eyes
You will see all that is fake
there's a notorious tear
resting on my cheek
So, think what you please.
But this, is
Just Me.

I have a stain
When I used a sharpie to scribble out our initails
I have a stain
On my lips where yours rested
I have a stain
On my cheek where the tears always fell
I have a scar on my heart
Right.
Where.
You.
Broke.
It.

No one notices
But I can see
She has a secret
I'm afraid that she's keeping it from me.
I've let her down
in so many ways
I tell her,
"I tried it again."
and she sinks into a daze.
Her strawberry hair
her skin sparkles everyday.
I've never seen such beauty
But even when she smiles
I see it in her eyes
They are never really looking
just staring
into space.
Call me a hypocrite and say
"Practice what You Preach"
If anyone were to fallow me.
My heart wouldn't beat.
everyday I ask her
"Are You Okay?"
she always says yes..
and that she loves me.
I suppose I shouldn't worry.
Because if she loved me,
there's no way she would leave

When I look in the mirror
I see a mess
When she looks at me
she see what she wants to be
This little girl
will always love me
no matter what
unconditionally.
I've let my self down
and everyone else too.
then she looks at me and
her rosie lips speak
"sissy, I love You."
I've cried all day
because of what they all say.
I feel dirty
and messy
and betrayed
and she says
"sissy, You look very pretty today."
I hate myself
I scream
"I want to die"
I can't take it.
Life blows.
as she brings tears to my eyes
she whispers,
"Sissy, Please Don't Go."

Say what you want
Judge as you please
but My question to You is
Could You Walk in My Rubber Boots?
step in my shoes
I'll show you how it feels
You'll be the hot topic
I'd assume my name tastes good
it rolls off your tongue
with the pre-conclusion that everything's true
You say you're My friend
but step in my Rubber Boots
see from my view
You would envy my strength
if You could see what I go through
Be unwanted
Be empty.
My dad's long gone.
My mom tries her hardest
Walk a mile in my Rubber Boots.
Try to keep up.
I dare you
just for a day or two
maybe I'd get more credit
if you spent thirteen years in my Rubber Boots.

We lay on the grass
The sun is beating down
yet I could still feel the dew
you whispered quietly
and suddenly my arms were around You.
Stop. Wake up.
That wasn't real
yup, he fooled you.
"Let's just keep this between us."
The sky looked beautiful.
Stars and the moon
to top it all off,
I was sitting there with you
"I'm new to this..."
I giggled, "you're so cute."
you whispered quietly
and suddenly my arms were around You.
Stop. Wake up.
He never cared.
yup, he lied to You.
"Let's just keep this between us."
He was smiling,
so perfect
so true.
"I love you."
aww. "I love you too..."
You whispered quietly
and suddenly my arms were around You.
Stop. Shut up.
Don't put this on anyone.
yup, he never would've hurt you.
We were at lunch
and I realized I was in love with you.
This thing.
This feeling.
So scary and new.
At that moment, I made a huge mistake.
It was over.
I broke up with you.
As I tried to forget,
he whispered quietly

She's Ruining my life
But I'll never love anyone like this
She was my Best Friend
Tight as can be
ages zero to three
But I hit a day
at this age thirteen
I Hate Her
and she'll Always Love Me
I can't escape this woman
because she made me
She'll never again be my best friend
but that isn't her job
she is her to teach me
and one day I'll see
When I have a daughter
that Passionately Dislikes Me