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I stood as still as water in the doorway,
As the room grew smaller.
Your ghost greeted me in your Home Depot Office chair.
As it was being squashed by someone wearing all black.
I stood as still as water in the doorway,
As the room grew smaller.
Your ghost greeted me in your Home Depot Office chair.
As it was being squashed by someone wearing all black.
I can't breathe,
I haven't felt like this in a while.
I thought it was getting better,
But I'm still drowning in screams.
Breathe,
Take some air, you deserve it.
I want love to feel
like driving into the sunset in a 90's movie
in an old red convertible
classic rock playing us out.
In 2050,
In Vermont:
I hope there will be
the same amount
of forest,
but there may
be less
as there is now
from 1990.
I hope my children
will know
They say I hate you,
But I never really did.
All I do is suffocate my sadness into nothing at all - like you taught me;
Because I don't know what else to do.
I see grief everywhere around me;
In 7 pm,
In cans of Appalachia,
You tell me I’m not enough
I’m unproductive
I’m insignificant
I’m useless
So I tried a little harder
I studied more
I’m just the nice girl
The therapist friend
Who’s seen enough
To bring her to her end
I give them advice
“What are you going to miss most?”
“You.”
Oh lover,
Oh lover,
Sometimes
I look at the stars
And hope
That somewhere
In another universe
We all got our happy endings.
In solitude I reside
Till the ghost of you will perish
I’ve erected a river of tears I cried
For it is you that I will cherish
The beauty of her boundaries,
Were how easy they’d be found,
She very clearly stated,
how not to let her down,
So if you crossed the first one,
She’d state to you again,
Please don’t go there my darling,
I wish a lie was just another funny truth,
But it’s not,
The chains that tied it to the floor,
Left nothing but cankered knots,
And when the sailors hauled her up the side of the dock,